Lost.

In the middle of my graduation exams, here I am, watching The Office. The episode? S7 Ep22: Goodbye Michael. Michael tells Kevin, "You should never settle for who you are," (because he's fat) but to Andy, he says, "I have faith in you." And just like that, he says goodbye to everyone and leaves. Emotional AF.

Anyway, back to real life.

Why am I writing this? Honestly, I don’t know.


Actually, I do. I’m writing this as a promise to my future self that this low point I’ve hit, I will fix it.

What’s wrong with me?

Physical Health

  • Overeating fruits post iftaar (which is backfiring, obviously).

  • Haven’t hit the gym in a month. I am 74-75 Kgs rn. Goal is 62-63!

  • Not taking marathon prep seriously.

  • Sleep schedule? Completely wrecked.

Mental Health

  • Can’t focus, not even in Tarawih prayers.

  • Feeling puzzled and confused all the time.

  • Stress is piling up.

In General

  • Addicted to perfectionism.

  • Addicted to The Office.

  • Doing everything except studying.

  • Not taking graduation exams seriously.

  • Procrastinating like crazy.

  • Feel like I’ll burn out if I don’t watch The Office.

And the cherry on top? I’m writing this while watching the last episode of the show (which I skipped to) after Michael left in Season 7. Sigh.

The Fix: Step-by-Step Plan

  1. Stop overeating. Start dieting. from TODAY.

  2. Return to the gym and UPSC prep (April 1 onwards). (Gym 3x a week + 1-2 days of marathon practice)

  3. Fix sleep schedule. This is the #1 priority.

  4. Focus on Tarawih and Salah overall. Be present.

  5. Declutter my mind – Daily to-do lists, focus exercises, journaling when needed. Make dua with focus. Ho jayega yaar.

  6. Manage stress better – Focus on career, do the work, and treat Salah like meditation. The Office, YouTube, and comedy aren’t the only stress-busters. People dealt with stress before phones. time to toughen up if I want to be an IAS officer.

One day, I’ll look back at this and be proud of my damn self.

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